OUR GATE MAN BROKE MY VIRGINITY; NOW I FEEL LIKE HAVING SEX WITH MY COUSIN, ADVISE ME PLS

I feel like having sex with my cousin! I’m sex starved!

Dear admin…. Am Judith, 19years and still a student, my parents are always busy because my dad is a senator and my mum is a Bank manager, am writing this because I actually want the admin to hook me up with someone. But before that, allow me make this little confession, most times am always home alone watching TV all day and surfing the net, I got addicted to porn and since then my sex appetite rose high, I always wanted to have sex with someone but no one was around to help me.

so one day I stood at the balcony as I watch the gate man move around, I thought of inviting him to the house to have sex with me, but I was so scared, the urge grew stronger that I had to invite him inside, when he came in,I went to my room and came out naked begging him to make love to me, at first he refused but I held him close and he finally agreed on one condition that I shouldn’t tell my mum.

He disvirgined me and that’s how I started having sex. The gate man continued using me for almost a year until wen my mum caught us; she jailed him & said she won’t get a new one until she has sent me abroad for further education. since then its almost a year now I’ve not had s.ex, even the dildo my mum bought for me isn’t doing anything, am really sex starved.

Can’t mummy see that am now grown and I need freedom?? Gosh my cousin seems to be the only guy coming around, am already getting attracted to him but I don’t know how to go about it

Or do you think there’s another way out because it seems am a nymph, am worried that no man will be able to satisfy me at just a tender age of 19. Will it be wise for me to just have sex with my cousin and end this depression? Advise me please!